So once again I blew it off.
so I didn’t take it seriously./so I once again gave up my effort to talk to him.
The word “it” in “blew it off” has no exact meaning. …I confronted him as to why we were not friends anymore. I asked him face to face to explain why we were not friends any more. confront
1) come face to face with, esp. with defiance or hostility E.g. I wish to confront my accuser in a court of law. 2) come up against; encounter
E.g. Walking in such a jungle, you will confront danger at every turn. as to
with regard to; concerning
E.g. We are puzzled as to how it happened.
He is very uncertain as to whether it is the right job for him. break down
1) lose control of one’s feelings
E.g. He broke down and wept when he heard the news. 2) cease to function because of a mechanical or electrical fault E.g. The telephone system has broken down.
3) fail to have any results; collapse E.g. Negotiations between the two affect
1) have an influence on (sb/sth); produce an effect on: The tax increases have affected us all.
2) (of disease) attack (sb/sth); infect （指疾病）侵袭（某人[某物]）; 感染:
Cancer had affected his lungs.
3) cause (sb) to have feelings of sadness or sympathy; touch We were deeply affected by the news of her death. When I got home things started to make sense When I came home, I began to understand things. make sense
1) have a understandable meaning
E.g. These words are jumbled up and don’t make sense. 2) be sensible,; have or show sense
E.g. It doesn’t make sense to buy that very expensive leather coat when these cheaper ones are just as good. Then I felt so bad that we had grown so far apart.
Then I felt extremely sorry that we had become so widely separated./ Then I felt very unwell that we had failed to understand each other as a result of a complete lack of exchange of feelings, thoughts, etc.
David had had unprotected sex once and now had to pay with his life.
David had had sex with a girl once. As no protective measures were taken, he contracted AIDS and had been suffering from it. Now he had to pay for it with his life. I had to handle it all on my own. I had to cope with it completely by myself. handle
1) touch, lift or hold with the hands E.g. The box is too heavy for me to handle. 2)operate with the hands; manipulate
E.g. He is very skillful at handling the machine. 3) cope with or dispose of
E.g. A successful businessman should know how to handle problems efficiently. … as if he had a plague:
as though he was a carrier of a plague plague:
1) an attack of disease causing death and spreading quickly to many people
e.g. Europe suffered many plagues in the Middle Ages.
2) ~ of sth, large numbers of a pest that invade an area and cause
annoyance or damage 侵扰一地造成破坏的大量有害动物 A plague of locusts destroyed all the crops in this area.
Once again I realized that our friendship meant everything to me.
Once more I fully understood that our friendship was most invaluable to me.
I couldn’t turn my back on him… .
I could not avoid seeing or refuse to help him…
turn one’s back on: refuse to be involved with, esp. unfairly or unkindly
E.g. He turned his back on his relatives, though he was a millionaire.
He is very kind to me. I cannot turn my back on him now that he needs my help. I stuck it out.
despite the fact that I might catch the disease and lose most of my friends, I showed a strong will, maintained close contact with David, and lent him help whenever necessary.
stick it out: continue with sth. to the end, despite difficulty or unpleasantness
e.g. Although we are faced with many difficulties, we must stick it out and accomplish the research project on time.
for fear that
because of anxiety that; in case of
e.g. I dare not go there for fear that he will see me.
They all dare not say what was in their mind for fear that it might cause trouble.
So how could I blame them since I could have done the same thing?
So how could I find fault with them? I would have done the same thing if David and I had not been the best of friends./
So how could I consider them to be unfriendly? I would have acted in the same manner if I had been one of them? …he had full blown AIDS.
…he suffered terribly from AIDS, which had spread all over his body and which tormented him very severely./
…he came down with AIDS, which had grown fatal and which was torturing him terribly. go through sth.
experience, endure or suffer sth.
e.g. She’s gone through a difficult time recently.
The hero has gone through numerous hardships and difficulties.
I must keep a positive attitude for his positive